my journey

I had my first spiritual awakening at the age  of  six. I remember it very clearly. I was a very angry little girl. I felt unloved and misunderstood. I felt trapped in my body. I could feel the power of who I truly was, but I was the only one who could see this. Everyone else saw me as just a little girl – someone’s little daughter. Then I moved to a new school,  run by Salesian nuns. There was a little chapel beside my classroom, and one day I felt an inner calling to go in. As I walked in, I felt a warmth and calmness that allowed me to connect with my heart in a way I had never experienced before. From that moment, I knew everything would be OK – that I was loved and that my voice was heard. I knew that I wasn’t alone, that I was part of something much greater. From that day something changed within me. My anger disappeared, and I knew that my life’s purpose was to help others to reconnect with themselves.

Years later, I came to realize that ‘helping others’ brought me a lot of suffering. There was something that I was doing wrong. I couldn’t understand why my life’s purpose wasn’t bringing me happiness. I then questioned myself: ‘What do I need to do differently?’ … and all I could hear, see and feel was the word ‘empowerment’! At that stage in my life, the concept of empowerment was alien to me, but as I learned about it, I could see what I had been doing wrong. In helping others I had become trapped in doing everything for them, believing that I could take their suffering away from them; but now I knew that helping others meant to empower myself and lead by example. I understood that the way that I could truly help others would be by going deep within my own wounds and transcending the attachment to pain and illusion – by holding a non-judgmental sense of existence and open arms of infinite acceptance. When I transform my own suffering into love, I am enabling and supporting others to reconnect with their hearts. My belief changed from ‘I’ll do it for you’ to ‘If I can do it, so can you.’ So whether your journey is decades or only days old, it is my deepest wish that my work will function as a transformational guide and impetus to further personal study and growth.